Diamond TearIn silenceI observe themLaughing and having funWhile I'm in my cornerAloneIgnoredInvisibleI feel out of placeI don't belong hereSo I leaveAnd no one noticesNow I'm out on the streetA dark and silent oneEnjoying the breezeThe silenceThe darknessLost in my thoughtsSuddenly I hear a sobAnd I look aroundI see a girlSitting on a benchA single diamond tearRunning down her faceI don't know herNo one else is aroundI could just leaveBut I can'tSo I sit by her side and ask"What's wrong?"Without looking her in the eyesFor a momentNothing happensAnd then she takes my handAnd we lookInto each other's eyesAnd she whispers"ThanksFor caring"
PainParalized by the sufferingA shiver down my spineImages of my past haunt meNo one can save me from this hell
Going DownGone foreverOn an endless journeyI shall never returnNever I'll be seen againGorgeous destiny this isDo this I mustOn my own I'm goingWith no fearNor regrets
The scarsLife hurts usIt causes us to bleedTime can heal the woundsAnd stop the painBut the scars remainFor the rest of our lives....
DreamDancing in the darkness orReaching for the stars?Empty but full of lifeA dream or a nightmare?My mind can't tell the difference
NightmareWelcome to my nightmareWelcome to the darknessWithin my mindA place where hope is lostLove is a dreamAnd joy doesn't existA place where pain rules over allSuffering is a mustAnd demons are everywhereA place where life is meaninglessThe living dance with the deadAnd insanity is imminentA place where the voices in your headNever stop haunting youAnd all the memories overflow your mindA place locked within meGrowing in secrecyUntil the day I can take it no moreWelcome...Welcome to my personal Hell...
BrokenBetter off dead because I amRotten to the core andObserving with blind eyes, looking for aKey to escape this madness I can'tEmbrace until I realize there isNothing I can do anymore....
To HellI might be insaneI feel like I amNothing makes sense anymoreLife means nothingSo look outIf you mess with my heartI'll take you with meTo oblivionTo Hell...
DescendingEvery wordWe don't sayEvery screamWe hold backEvery nightWe spend awakeEvery mistakeWe don't regretAre just another stepOn our descent into chaos
LoserTrying onceTwiceAgainAnd againFailing onceTwiceAgainAnd againFeelingLike crapUselessPowerlessWeakScreamingAnd cryingIn frustrationFeeling likeA fucking loser...
EmotionEvery feelingMy mind deals withOvercomes my judgementToday it's no differentI can't take it anymoreObserving my image butNothing is revealed
Betrayed FriendsBest friends we once wereEverything we usedTo shareRunning happilyAround the houseYou were the one I wanted by my sideEnduring life togetherDull moments were unknownFriendship be cursedRot in HellI hate you now, traitorExpect from meNo forgivenessDon't even thinkSo leave me alone!
FallingFailure after failureA life not worth livingLost in my miseryLong gone are the good momentsI keep fallingNothing can save me nowGone my hopes are
ForeverFor eternityOur destiny is determinedReliving the pastEnduring the sufferingVisions of the futureEndeavours to comeRepresenting life as a whole
LifeI'm not livingI'm only survivingThere's so much to doAnd so little timeI'm always in a rushTrying to keep up with lifeWithout a moment to restWithout a moment to thinkThere's no joy in lifeBeing here makes no senseSometimes it comes to meThat I should put an end to it...
We can be happyHope is not deadAnd dreams come trueWe just have to keep fightingFor our hearts are pureThere's nothing to fearFor we're stronger than we realizeWe can do itWe can be happy in this life
Helping handI'm drowningIn my own miseryI reach outSearching for a helping handBut nobody is thereAnd so I sinkStill trying to reach a handThat is not there
Universal mindThere's a whole UniverseWithin my mindLife thereIs just the way I want it to beI'm not sufferingI'm not brokenI'm not aloneEverything is perfectBut it's not realIt's fakeImaginarySo I take a deep breathAnd open my eyesReality is waitingI must returnI'd rather face a real mightmareThan living in a dream
Beautifully BrokenA tidal wave crashesHard against the front of my skull,Spewing fountains of hate into the air.They are not beautiful.A shot glass in one hand,A pen in the other,I drink alone in my roomAs everything about me falls apart.I can't heal mistakes.The higher I am,The prettier the fountains become,But they really still look the same.The world sees such strength,A stoic warrior in a landscape of corruption,But inside is a black, charred heart,Shrouded in secrecy.I am not beautiful,Because hate is not beautiful.
The DarknessI cannot remember any time in my lifeWhen I was not running from the darknessFlying low and waiting for that flash of knifeKnowing it would be coming from the darknessThe only loyal companion was the stinging painCreating its own shadow inside of the darknessThe hissing relief in that shower of bloody rainMerging within the screaming bells of darknessThen one day there was no longer a need to fleeWhen the answer bellowed forth from the darknessRunning was hopeless when the darkness resides in me
NothingI heard someone sarcastically sputter,"You are what you eat."But hearing that sole sentenceallowed me to finally understandwhy I amwhat I am:Nothing.
Help Me :)..hey. Can you help me smile? I don't mean to pry. You must often wonder why I ask this And why. Why do I do this? Why do I bleed? Why do I hurt And scream And... ..and have a broken heartbeat Ticking slower and slower As each day goes by Each second goes slower And slower Numb tributes to this life I lead So if you don't mindAnd I don't mean to pry But please help me smile. To laugh. ..not cry.
I've ForgottenWhen she diedI tied a knot in my stomachso I would rememberbut I've been so busytrying to remember her dyingI forgot how to forget.I've forgottenhow to let go -and the doctors saidthey would cut me openand snip her outa blade between the bowsand she,and the pain, would be gonebut I've forgottenhow to let go -and I still don't want to.
Nothing But A PuppetI am nothing but a puppet,A thing that you control.A simple wooden toy,I do not have a soul.I am nothing but a puppet,Someone to do your bidding.Your demands from my body,Relentless, unforgiving.I am nothing but a puppet,Your fingers pull my strings.They pull in all directions,Twisting, tangling.I am nothing but a puppet,My strings down by my sides,Trailing closely right behind me,My eternally bounding ties.
BrokenI'm not broken,Just a little bent.All those words you've spoken,Just left me a little dent.My heart isn't shattered,It just has a crack.Sore, bruised, and battered,But my tears I hold back.Please don't worry about me.I'm fine, I swear.I just want you to see,That I'm still able to be repaired.Even though I'm hurt, damaged, and weakened,Even though I've felt so much pain.It doesn't mean I'm truly beaten,It just means that I'll need a little help again.
Dear little oneBe still tormented little boy,
she's the one for you but
you can no longer call her name.All your dreams have burned and expired
and you hate to go to sleep
not to see her haunt your nightsand revive a hope you tried hard to purge.
Everyday starts the same,
a quiet, innocent hey, butbehind it there's a ton
of words you no longer speak.
You took an unspoken vow
to keep it buried deep below
and pretend things are okay.There are days when it hurtstoo much to hold back the truth,
and you can't deal with the lump that lurks in your throat.
Oh little boy you wonder if she knows
how much you struggleto
keep your smile burning across your lips,or how many times you
swallowyour pride not to stir a war.Maybe you're obsessed by now
and she's only playing along,
out of pity because you've lost it all.
ConsumedI'm having a bad day, I'm having a bad few yearsinside I'm shouting loud but no one hearsI'm dying to tell you - can't you seethat all this anger is killing mebut it's a waste of breathExhaleI give in - pain is all I have leftI faildriven by revenge I want nothing but deathBetrayalin life makes me think you are like the restImpaledmy heart is bleeding in my chestAnd no one notices in my caseso I pull away to a quiet place'cause I'm tired of looking alrightI'm tired of smiling and saying I'm fineWill you stand by my side?with who are you allied?'cause I wanna heal and be myselfI don't wanna feel like someone elseBut I'm slowly fadingconsumed by emotions - they've takenthe best of me, and happiness has forsakenmy dreams, my heartit's taken my sparkcold and darktrying to leave behind the pastI'm searching for an endI hold out my hands - I'm not going to pretendthat life is easyI'm hurting every day believe me!
Kill meKing of the damnedI can't live like thatLeave me to dieLet this nightmare endMy friend, pleaseEnd my life