LifeI'm not livingI'm only survivingThere's so much to doAnd so little timeI'm always in a rushTrying to keep up with lifeWithout a moment to restWithout a moment to thinkThere's no joy in lifeBeing here makes no senseSometimes it comes to meThat I should put an end to it...
ChangesI used to dreamAbout saving the worldNow I only want the worldTo leave me alone
ForgottenI'm nothing to the worldMeaningless and worthlessJust another human beingWith nothing special at allA face in the crowdNobody noticesAnother stangerPeople won't rememberAnonymous I amThat won't changeQuickly forgotten I'll beThat's my sad destiny
BarrierIt surrounds meIt keeps me "safe"I created itTo protect myselfFrom the bulliesFrom my "friends"From everyoneIt was necessaryIt was the only wayAnd now I'm trappedI can't leave this spaceNor break the barrierAnd here I amAloneIn my "happy" place
InsanityShould I keep fighting?Or is it betterIf I just let it go?I'm not sure anymoreI can't take it anymoreThe voices are driving me crazyMaybe I should stop fightingAnd let insanity take overMaybe that wayLife will have a meaningAnd maybeI can find happiness
Barely aliveEmpty eyesAnd mechanized actionsDay after dayI'm not deadBut I'm not alive eitherSomewhere in betweenAs I drag my bodyThrough time and spaceLike a zombieWithout a mind of my ownWithout hopes or dreamsNot livingJust survivingAnd letting numbnessBe my only feeling
Within my mindWithin my mindYou can findOnly darknessAnd hopelessnessStay away you mustMyself I don't trustLeave me aloneMy soul is already gone
DreamDancing in the darkness orReaching for the stars?Empty but full of lifeA dream or a nightmare?My mind can't tell the difference
We can be happyHope is not deadAnd dreams come trueWe just have to keep fightingFor our hearts are pureThere's nothing to fearFor we're stronger than we realizeWe can do itWe can be happy in this life
StruggleI see lightI see darknessI must fightAganist madnessIt's clear to meNow I can seeThe rules are setBut I'm not going down yet
WithinAnother selfAnother monsterAnother voiceIn my headA gift from HeavenA curse from HellDestroying my beingFrom the insideAnd leaving nothing behind
DieDie,You liarDie,You betrayerDie!Because you left meWhen I needed you the mostDie!Because you sold my secretsTo my worst enemiesDie!Because you were supposedTo help meBut all you didWas causing me painDieSlowly and painfullyAt my handsThis is your endYou can't escape meI'll enjoy endingYour pathetic lifeDieAnd be goneGone forever
DepressedThe flame is extinguishedMy hopes and dreams are no moreLife has become a burdenAnd I don't even bother
The way outDeath feelsSo appealingSo seductiveThe endOf my painThe voidOf oblivionMy salvationMy only wayOut of thisThis worldOf misery
EyesDeepBeautiful eyesMesmerizing meIt feels likeThey are staringInto my very soulAnd rendering meMotionlessParalyzed
Broken memoriesBroken memoriesOf love and hateOf laughs and criesOf whispers and screamsPieces of a pastI want to leave behindA pastThat has cursed my soulChaining my mindAnd my heartUntil the endOf my worthless existence
DescendingEvery wordWe don't sayEvery screamWe hold backEvery nightWe spend awakeEvery mistakeWe don't regretAre just another stepOn our descent into chaos
Her last momentsShe's on the roofNot daring to look downHer eyes closedThe wind blowing through her hairConsideringWhether life is worth livingOr notShe thinks about her familyThey disowned herShe thinks about her loveHe broke her heartShe thinks about her friendsThey turned their backs on herIt's no useAnd soWith a last breathWith a last smileShe jumped
GoodbyeI want to mutter a million things,but they’re catching in my throatAnd my heart is heavy in my chest,with a weight that holds a heavy loadThis weight is not a pound of gold,but rather a pound of worthless rocksAnd now I’m spitting bits of gravelas I try to talk
Help Me :)..hey. Can you help me smile? I don't mean to pry. You must often wonder why I ask this And why. Why do I do this? Why do I bleed? Why do I hurt And scream And... ..and have a broken heartbeat Ticking slower and slower As each day goes by Each second goes slower And slower Numb tributes to this life I lead So if you don't mindAnd I don't mean to pry But please help me smile. To laugh. ..not cry.
The IndividualYou wear your skin, with mask of sin,A spiderweb of lies. Of "individuals",Breaking ties, alone at lastThey seem to hide, a fixation of vanity...I am the "individual"!This is my golden ritual,Refuse all that is me,A web of lies I be!But can you see, what you've become,Showing these scars made by none-Other than you?They were made just for you...They were made just by you...Made to be pitied too...You are the "individual"!Lies are your golden ritual,Refuse what you should be,To live with agony!
I'll Cry For YouDon't give up -Just give me the tearsYou can no longer cry,And I promise -I'll take it as a blessingIn the memory of your lifeI promise that everydayTears will fallWhile I think of you,And they will be for you,Not about you,So that I knowWhere you are nowIs a happier placeBut if you try,You won't be broken -Let your tearsBe what seals the cracksThat have led you to thisReveal, don't concealThe emotion that stranglesThe decision you yearn to make -For then, and only then,Shall you cry and show the worldYou're strong enoughTo show your painInstead of running awayBut if that's your choice,Simply remember me, andDon't give up -Just give me the tearsYou can no longer cry,And I promise -I'll take it as a blessingIn the memory of your life
When the Student hunts his MasterThere are nightmaresThen there's meBecause I'm the hunterYou'll never seeRunning through the darkWatching your every moveWaiting for you to make a mistakeThere's something I've got to proveI'll run the forestsI'll jump the gapsI'll bob and weaveThrough your trapsI'll stalk youIn the dark of nightAnd kill you in your sleepWithout a fightThere's no force greaterOn this earthThen revenge for lost onesYou've known since birthYou weren't there for usWhen we needed you mostNow you'll be crucifiedTo some godforsaken postYou were my masterThe one I use to admireNow your slow deathIs my sole desireI made a promiseTo my dying breedThat I'd cut you openAnd watch you bleedYou taught me how to huntTo live by our creedNow you've turned your back on usFor your own selfish needYou betrayedEverything we areLeft us to dieWhile you ran farSo I may be alone nowThe last of our kindBut don't let that fool youLike a trick of the mindI've raised an armyThat's to la
Carry OnI like sharp things;The way they shineThe way they hurtThe way they leave a red line.I like to bleed;The way it's redThey way it hurtsThe way it washes out what they said.I like to live;The way it's wrongThe way it hurtsThe way it tells me that I am strong.
MonsterI'm the monster.No, I don't need to hide under your bed,inside your thoughts is good enough for me.Only help will make me go away,and I make sure you don't get it ever.I come when your full of high spirits,and push you down into a pit of despair.Sometimes, I leave and make youfeel the cold numbness you despise.You'd rather hurt then be numb,and welcome me back.Only the strong ones can shake me off,and continue on their right path;instead of the bad one I've created for you.
Yesterday and TodayToday, I am a person.I am stronger than I have been,I am stronger than I was yesterday.Yesterday, I was a person.I was weaker than I am now,I was weaker but not weak.Today, I am tearless.But as was yesterday,I am not fearless.Yesterday, I had cried.But as of today,I can say I've tried.Today, I am human.I fall and break myself,Only to do it again.Yesterday, I was human.I fell and broke myself,For another time over.Today, I stood up.And my feet now stand,On faulty but solid ground.Yesterday, I climbed.My mind had followed,As words were my ladder.Today, I am prepared.Soon, I'll likely miss a step,And fall right back down.Yesterday, is a past day.I've learned how to deal again,Until a newer impact rises.Today is who I am,Yesterday is who I was.And every day,That means something new.
...i'd like to see the stars, falland kiss themoon.i'd make a wish as they'd shatter its glowinto a million little pieces, andscatteracross the seas.one day, these lights will goout; one day, that wish will cometrue.[shut your eyes and imaginethe end]
Helping handI'm drowningIn my own miseryI reach outSearching for a helping handBut nobody is thereAnd so I sinkStill trying to reach a handThat is not there