LifeI'm not livingI'm only survivingThere's so much to doAnd so little timeI'm always in a rushTrying to keep up with lifeWithout a moment to restWithout a moment to thinkThere's no joy in lifeBeing here makes no senseSometimes it comes to meThat I should put an end to it...
MyselfI don't knowWho I amBut I do knowThat I likeBeing myselfAnd I wouldn't wantTo be anyone else
Helping handI'm drowningIn my own miseryI reach outSearching for a helping handBut nobody is thereAnd so I sinkStill trying to reach a handThat is not there
StruggleI see lightI see darknessI must fightAganist madnessIt's clear to meNow I can seeThe rules are setBut I'm not going down yet
InsanityShould I keep fighting?Or is it betterIf I just let it go?I'm not sure anymoreI can't take it anymoreThe voices are driving me crazyMaybe I should stop fightingAnd let insanity take overMaybe that wayLife will have a meaningAnd maybeI can find happiness
BarrierIt surrounds meIt keeps me "safe"I created itTo protect myselfFrom the bulliesFrom my "friends"From everyoneIt was necessaryIt was the only wayAnd now I'm trappedI can't leave this spaceNor break the barrierAnd here I amAloneIn my "happy" place
We can be happyHope is not deadAnd dreams come trueWe just have to keep fightingFor our hearts are pureThere's nothing to fearFor we're stronger than we realizeWe can do itWe can be happy in this life
In needTake my hand. I won't let go.
Broken memoriesBroken memoriesOf love and hateOf laughs and criesOf whispers and screamsPieces of a pastI want to leave behindA pastThat has cursed my soulChaining my mindAnd my heartUntil the endOf my worthless existence
Signs of the timesI look at the mirrorAnd I don't recognize myselfI see...A broken shellA shadow of myselfEmpty eyesOnce so full of lightSkin so paleIt seems to glow in the darkNothing on the lipsWhere a smile used to playWho's that personLooking back at me?
Reflections of the stormLying on the cold floorListening to this sad songI love so muchFeeling the beatsOf my broken heartBreathing deeplyThis poisoned airWhile the storm outsideReflects the storm insideWithin my disturbed mind
Two SidesOh. It broke.Don't worry, we can fix it!Why bother? It'll just break again.But then we can make it stronger!It won't make a difference.Well, we have to fix it if it's broken, right?Not unless we stop using it.But we have to use it!We do?We do!It's useless fixing it though; it never stays quite right.Then we'll just have to make sure it does this time, won't we?You know you're just setting yourself up for failure.We'll see. You know we're going to end up using it.And a week after we start using it, it'll break. Again.We just have to learn how to use it properly.And what is this "properly"? Have we been using it dangerously this entire time?Well, no, but—Exactly. It's not us. It's them.You know, you shouldn't blame it on others.Whatever.Why do you never care about it?Why do you care so much about it?
Barely aliveEmpty eyesAnd mechanized actionsDay after dayI'm not deadBut I'm not alive eitherSomewhere in betweenAs I drag my bodyThrough time and spaceLike a zombieWithout a mind of my ownWithout hopes or dreamsNot livingJust survivingAnd letting numbnessBe my only feeling
FlamesFire burning strongLaughing at the worldAt my weaknessMesmerizing and beautifulEverything it touchesShall turn to ashes
This is loveIn this empty roomWe stand togetherIn silenceIn the darknessOur shattered heartsBleeding together as oneWhile the blood runsThrough our cold skinThis is what love is likeTwo broken peopleSharing their painMerging their empty soulsWe forget about the worldBecause we live in a world of our ownUnited as oneIn an illusion of happiness
ForgottenI'm nothing to the worldMeaningless and worthlessJust another human beingWith nothing special at allA face in the crowdNobody noticesAnother stangerPeople won't rememberAnonymous I amThat won't changeQuickly forgotten I'll beThat's my sad destiny
WonderlandTake me to wonderlandA crazy worldMuch better than this oneWhere insanity is a mustAnd nothing is dullTake me thereTo meet the RabbitAnd the Mad HatterThe Mouse, the CaterpillarAnd the storytelling TurtleTake me to the Queen of HeartsSo I can play her crazy gameAnd so she can order her guardsTo cut my head off
DreamDancing in the darkness orReaching for the stars?Empty but full of lifeA dream or a nightmare?My mind can't tell the difference
Don't CryI want to cut it out,Cause new damage to my skin.I want to see my other half,See the pain I hold within.I trusted you to help me,I trusted you to care.And everytime I need you most,You are never there!Well, I hope you're happy.For today my life is done.I'm glad that I have met you,This short time has been real fun.I know you do not love me,So I press the blade against my wrist,I just want to make you happy;Even if I can't exist.I grab the rusty blade,And slice right to the bone.The reason for me doing so,Is that you left me all alone.You walked away from me,Knowing I was gonna die.You saw me with my knife,Why did you leave? Just why?Now I am forever bleeding,I see you walk back through the door."I'm sorry my dear friend,I couldn't take it anymore."You apologise and hold me,I whisper, "Please don't cry.I know you're only faking,I just need to bleed and die."You yell, "I am so sorry!Is there something I can do?"I whisper, "No one can save me.No one, not
Don't Understand....I just do not understand,There's tiny teardrops in my hand;My blood is dripping on the ground,My breaking heart's the only sound.My heart shatters like a stone,I don't know why, but I'm all alone. My memories are frozen in time,Remembering torture, remembering crime.The wind is screaming through the trees,Voices carried on each breeze;Spirits try to hold my hand,But I just do not understand.Secrets kept, no one shall tell,I am trapped inside a spell.My tears are falling rather fast,As I remember all of my past.Towards the river I start to crawl,I look at it and start to bawl.It reflected evil, reflected you,Reflected anger and lies turned true.So many thoughts rush through my head,My secret life is filled with dread.This lonesome night I must wash away, Must wash the pain of another day.The last of my hopes, last of my love, Just burst to flames and flew up above.I feel my life has reached the end, There is no way my heart can mend.My tho
NothingI heard someone sarcastically sputter,"You are what you eat."But hearing that sole sentenceallowed me to finally understandwhy I amwhat I am:Nothing.
it isn't like i loved it or anything like that.we wrapped ourselves in our candy floss dream; perfectentwining of souls, smelling the sweet successin our sights. we laughed as our eyes clouded over with the sickly intimacythat decayed my heart.who would have thought that one bite wouldtear us apart?
LungsMaybe ifour lungsexhaled moneyinstead ofcarbon dioxide,we'd valuelifea little more(or maybe we'd just go broke).
Only Takes OneIt only took a single cut.One slit upon her skin.That one tiny little cut,Shows the pain that she was in.I hold her tiny hand in mine,As tears escape my eyes.Why didnt I just listen?To her desperate little cries?I look at her in agony.I re-read the note she wrote.All it took was one small cut,To open her small throat.I try to stop the bleeding,But it's too late, she's dead.I start to read the note once more,This is what she said:"Dear family and dear friends,Life is too hard for me.It only takes one single cut,To set my spirit free."With a heavy heart I state-That this is my final day.I will miss you all so much,That is all I wish to say."My dearest friend is dead.Her life on Earth is done.I cant believe that she is gone,And all it took was one.
Lonely:When you'reso unwantedthat evenyour thoughtschooseto exityour company.
Things Get Better!"Things get better." You say to me,With tears filling up your eye.I look at you and weakly say,"You just don't understand why.""All the people I know and love,They just throw their lives away!They force pain into their lives,Each and everyday!""Slowly with each passing minute,They drink and smoke and worse:They kill themselves slowly, in pain;It's like some sort of curse!""They don't know how I feel,When they drink and smoke and cry!They don't listen to my pleads,They would rather just go die!""So why should I have to suffer,When it's their mistake, not mine!?So go away my dearest friend,I will be just fine!""I will make the people I care for,Finally understand;They will see just how I feel,When they're holding my limb hand!""When my light goes out, they'll see;They will understand, at last.Then maybe they will stop the pain,And put they're addiction in the past!"You look at me, still crying;You grab my hands and plead.You beg for me, "please don't do this
Wishful Thinking.It is my dreams thatare sewn with golden stitches.They burst at the seams.
ChangesI used to dreamAbout saving the worldNow I only want the worldTo leave me alone